Mindset

My attitude has been bad. I’ve been annoyed that I have not been DOING the things I know I need to do. I think it’s more than discipline, it also has to do with assertiveness and communication. It has to do with being a leader. However, instead of outlining plans with others, and then prioritizing and executing tasks, I have been floundering and being mad at the way things are. That’s my bad attitude. In terms of coping, I have been avoiding and being emotional, not being task-oriented. The emotional part is subtle though, not strong. It’s like I am unaware of what I am saying to myself as I work through the problems I am facing. That’s another example of my lack of self awareness.

My situation certainly points to the importance of communication and finding people who keep me accountable to my actions. People who don’t shy away from “suffocating my bullshit”. People who challenge my way of thinking in order to make me the best I can be.

I think it’s time to clarify what the hell I’m trying to accomplish. I have so many things I’d like to do, it’s time maybe to narrow my focus and get good at executing on those things.

I think it comes down to not wanting to take so much. To take care of myself so I can give more.