🏋️‍♀️ Goals T2W5🏃 

Physical: By End of T2W5, I will have tracked all food I consumed. Review: 100%

I did a really good job with this because my physical health is super important to me. I just read that a guy who is slightly younger than me just had a heart attack, and I would be wise to take good care of myself. I will continue this goal.

https://www.nutritionix.com

Food Amount Calories

Coffee ✅ 24 6

Cream ✅ 1 oz 40

Almonds 1/4 cup 170

Banana 1 100

slojesse sando 1 600

nachos 675

Tri Tip 3 oz 179

Salmon 3 oz 250

Shake 250

Avocado Toast✅ 1 386

slojesse Nachos

1.5 oz Chips 210

2 servings mex cheese 200

2 serving moz. Cheese 160

2 servings refined beans 220

1 oz salsa 5

Avocado Toast 386

Sourdough 1slice 110

Avocado .5 160

Butter 1 tsp 34

Egg 1 72

Tomato 8

Noodle Bowl

Noodles 260

Chicken 187

Veggies 20

Oil 100

Meat 60 (60/ 2 slices)

Cheese 140 (70/ slice)

Mayo 180 (90/ tbsp)

Bread 220 (110/slice)

PB and J 480

Bread 220

Pb 200

J 60

Quesadilla

Cheese 110

Tortilla 50

Physical: By End of T2W5, I will have done 560 push ups- (80 push ups per day) Result: 57% of what I set out to do.

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30 80 50 30 70 40 20

Review: This week I did 320 push ups. Overall that is a good number for a person, but it’s not as high as I’d like it to be because I am trying to get stronger. Honestly, I am very aware of my intention to do push ups as I go through the day, but when I realize in a given moment that I have the choice to either do them or not, it requires a lot of positive self talk to get down and do them. If there are other people in the room, or if I am in the middle of thinking about something, then I will not do them. In order for me to actually do them, I need to overcome my fear of looking silly. I guess the things that block me are fear of others’ judgement as well as a bad attitude which manifests as laziness. I don’t like to say I am a lazy person, because it seems too general of a statement, but when it comes to hard work and tough choices, I have a bad attitude and I guess I get resentful. I have a lack of emotional toughness as well, but I do know that just recognizing my emotions at any given time is a good way to accept reality, then I can just move on from there. Knowing how I feel and acknowledging that feeling helps me stay humble and connected. Being humble and connected helps me to feel happy, then I can drop down and make progress on 10 more push ups. I move through the day minute by minute sometimes.

Mental: By End of T2W5, I will have worked 6 20 minute sessions of planning, grading, writing, and communicating per day. Review: I worked on planning and grading rading for 5.5 hours this week.

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3 3 Didn’t count sessions 2 6.5 2 0

How much should I be grading? I’d like to be able to set up a better schedule for grading, so I am not working a crazy amount of time outside of my contract hours. I think I am doing a pretty good job of just NOT WORKING outside of my contract hours, but I need to get more efficient with my work habits and planning so I can do a better job of getting things done on time.  so  work/life balance in terms of WHEN I .  I think most of my time was last minute preparations for the things I was going to do each day, not grading the stack of papers that was my actual intention to get through. This was the Tyranny of the Urgent at play. I let it get the best of me and used it as an excuse. This is another manifestation of my bad attitude towards long, boring work tasks. Weirdly though, I am always pleased and happy when I get through those “long, boring, work tasks”, because it gives me insights as to what I really ought to be targeting in order to be the person I am trying to be. In a weird way, grading is the easiest thing I can do because it gives me the most insights into how to plan. It is basically a review, which is the most important, smart, insightful thing you can do. I WANT TO BE IMPORTANT, RESPONSIBLE, SMART, AND INSIGHTFUL. More than anything! I think I just review the wrong things- like TikTok, saying that I am trying to do research. Nah- it’s just easier to consume, and I have a bad attitude about work sometimes so I lie to myself and become slovenly. I like this 20 minute session plan, I think it will go well if I can keep my thinking simple, not grandiose. Be humble.

Mental: By Friday I will have spent 2 hours listing items on EBay in 20 minute sprints. Review: 0%

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I didn’t do ANY eBay work! I just didn’t even want to begin. “It’s just too much work” I tell myself. It’s much easier to just go on Social Media, telling myself that “this is MY time”, time to relax and de-stress from the day. As I think about what the article said, I have a really severe lack of clarity of how to begin this task. Problem solving in the moment, when I have already been avoiding more important issues, seems like a huge burden and a waste of time. This is just another manifestation of my bad attitude at play, my self-pity that “life is hard” and “I want to enjoy myself”. It would be good for me to take 20 minutes and get clarity on exactly what I need to do to make progress on this goal. It literally would take 20 minutes to just get started. That is why I made this goal 20 minutes per day! I know exactly how to start! I just haven’t taken the first 20 minutes to get the process going, because I know I will judge myself and be annoyed that I didn’t finish. That’s another problem I have, I have grandiose thinking about my tasks, and picture all the possible steps in my head, without actually listing them out. Actually, I do have them listed out in ClickUp, but I haven’t revisited the work I did in the past. Again, 20 minutes would give me a really good head start on getting clarity of what I need to do. I like this goal and think that it should continue.

Emotional: By End of T2W5, I will have identified my emotions every day as needed. Review: 100% 

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😬 confident Calm, hopeful, pm calm, determined Am 😊😬😎 pm 🤨🧐🤔😑 Am hopeful, determined, ashamed pm tired, overwhelmed, annoyed Am worried, ashamed, hopeful Worried, tired, determined pm still determined Hopeful, happy, determined

As the week went on, I knew that I was avoiding tasks that I ought to be working on, so I started getting worried. Emotional toughness and positivity doesn’t come easy for me. I have to think back to the basics, and recognize where I am at. It’s like: Step 1: Identify what you are feeling in any given moment. Step 2: Figure out why. Step 3: Accept the reality that you actually feel like that. Step 4: Be humble and say something that you are grateful for, so you can get back down to the responsible task of making progress on your goals. You may need to acknowledge a mistake or something in order to clear the air so you have the mental space to begin working again.

Social: By End of T2W5, I will have texted a friend, not a family member, every day. Review: 50%

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Jonathan Brandon Kyle/ Brandon Brandon Cezar 😔

I was still avoiding people here, I have much more to offer than avoiding people, but I did it because I was being lazy and selfish with my time. I had a bad attitude from being overwhelmed with the to do list in my head. Better planning and diligence will help me have the mental capacity to do more for others, which is truly where I want my energy to go. I even had a Mission Statement about it- strengthening connections! I am not even living up to my aspirations. That makes me feel foolish and guilty. Feeling foolish and guilty makes me want to hide from everyone. I don’t want to hide from everyone, I want to be connected in a positive way, so I need to admit my mistakes, take the time to figure out how to apologize to them, do that, then continue to work through my daily process of my “work periods”, taking care of the things I said I would do. FOLLOW THROUGH IS HOW I CAN STRENGTHEN CONNECTIONS.

Spiritual: By End of T2W5, I will have meditated for 12 minutes per day in the morning and at night. Review: 41%

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I think this is a good goal still, I just was overwhelmed and underprepared this week. I was looking to escape my responsibilities, and I didn’t want to face my fears, which is what happens when I close my eyes and just be in my own head.

Environmental: By T2W5, I will have organized and consolidated paperwork at both my home and work desks as I do my 20 minute sprints. Review: 14%

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👍 👎 👎 👎 👎desk still looks the same 🤷‍♂️ 👎

I avoided working this week, and justified it with the notion that I was working out hard, and needed the time to just relax. The garden gets taken over by the weeds when we relax. I have a lot of weeds to cut down this week, and if I am diligent with my work, things will start getting cleaned up nicely.

T2W5 Review

I’ve been trying to track my goals consistently this week. I don’t think I am focused on the right things though. I would like to get really organized with my goals and tracking data, so I can be more responsive to people’s needs as well as be a better manager for the things I am in charge of. I have been avoiding some work because I think I am afraid of doing it wrong. Or I am just avoiding because I am resentful. I’m not exactly sure. It basically seems to come down to the fact that I am just human with some character defects, and I would do best to just accept this truth and move on, face my fears, and communicate with people. Definitely starting with the meetings I have coming up this week.

Or maybe not. Maybe I would do good tho clarify where my mind has been at and see if I am off target with what I am trying to do. I haven’t done a good mind dump in a while, nor have I , but I do halready have a clickupClickUp note dedicated to mind dumps. Maybe I should just revisit that instead of trying to start over. Facing the things you know you shouldn’t be avoiding is you acting out your deepest truth. That’s when your life improves. - Jordan Peterson https://youtu.be/Ifi5KkXig3s 30:15

I just went back and looked at my mind dump and there is nothing there.

https://thefocuscourse.com/a-weekly-review-for-your-goals/ 

I just decided to go look at good questions to ask when reviewing goals. Here is what stood out to me:

Goals fail because of 1. Lack of Clarity on how to make progress, and 2. Things that are urgent take over and overwhelm.

So how to stop this!? How to make progress on what is actually most important?

“Implementing a weekly review increases the likelihood that you will achieve your goals MORE THAN ANY OTHER FACTOR!!”- because a weekly review is holding yourself accountable. To yourself!

“Goals must have regular review! Weekly seems to be the magical interval”

I already know this stuff, I just don’t DO IT regularly. This is the part of discipline. Right? OK, so I am going to go back to the top of this note, then review each goal, in order to help clarify what I need to do in order to move forward on each one.